What's kickin in my mind?

Ya long night, woke up then just went back to sleep. As a I hear "Jesus Walks" I begin to slowly wake up. As I'm peckin on my cell to my son, I start to gain consciousness. Lata as I begin to clean, I realize that this pre-med thing I'm gettin into is going to be real hard. I'm ready tho. But am I really? I look at some doctors and just see that they have no life besides their job. There is mo out there for me. Am I just doing this for someone else or me? Been my dream or have I just been brainwashed into wanting it to be my dream? Only God knows what I will do with my life. I began to pray last night to Him and asked and meditated. There is time but not enough. I will start to realize what I want in life. Well I'm off to my Chem book now.