Whad ya cookin mahn?

I realized that alot of things I'm not paying attention to lately.

Numba One is tha Lord God, Ja, the Almighty...it seems like I'm not trying to connect as we once were. No I don't think I'm out of reach from Him, its just we haven't had as many sessions together as we should. I know He wants to but it seems like I've put Him on hold. Not good, not good at all.
LOL I rememba when mom would call us from our activities at night usually homework and be like "Girls, its time to pray." I really need that. Shoot I rememba once Ama wasn't in a real good state of mind and she began praying about how I don't eat healthy foods. We all busted out laughing. At the table we pray but not always. It just it seems like the hunger takes on you don't really even think about thanking the Lord before you eat. Usually it will be while I eat I'll pray. Does it seem that some are shy to pray in public? I tend to be shy. I rememba walking up in the library at school and seeing these muslims praying. I was very much impressed. I do thank the Lord when I'm driving...like usually at home or something I just begin to wonder how things aren't that bad for me and I am blessed. Its nice.

I was listening to the radio on Sunday on the gospel station...and this lady began to preach about how we are always saying that the Lord allowed this to happen such as sickness or anything bad. This is I am not proud to say but sometime I do think that God allowed things to happen. But the lady straightend it out saying that we allow the bad things to happen. The Lord will do whatever to protect us from the evil things but we as humans allow those evil things to come into our lives.

Well the otha thing I'm not paying attention to is my family. My father pointed it out to me that I don't keep in contact with them. Most of them are in Africa and India so ofcourse he understands its hard to keep real close contact with them. But the initiative is what he was talking about. As I was hearing him talk to me about this i began to just think at the times Tina(my lil cousin) has written to me...with so much love she writes her words are so deep a yearning for her big sister to come back or atleast for her to come here. I have written letters but not on a regular basis. I'll start writing to them. I WILL DO IT.

Gloomy rainy days aren't that bad when you think of it. It seems like time is moving slow as if every step you take is in the same motion no aggitiation. It like the fresh rain drops leave enough moisture in the air to just keep you cool. The night rests quickly tho, its no shock when you see night for the day was close to night. hmm. or its just this gloomy rainy day is real nice for me.

Aight then I'll leave it @ this