Saturday

Hurricane Season

Its absolutely boring but yet so calming. I've managed to catch up on my sleep which I lost this past week. Literally I slept 14hrs. Okay I over did it, but wow I do feel my body to be lost. I ran into an old friend yesterday, from way back in elementry school. Wow he's changed, looking alot more grown and not the same old dorky guy. I had a "boyfriend" back in fifth grade. The reason I put the quotes is because I'd probably say he was my little crush besides Stephon on Family Matters during that age. We never talked maybe a hi or hey here and there. One day somehow I became his girlfriend. I don't know how that happened but I guess it happened. But he moved and I kept in contact with him through his friend Duwane,the one I saw yesterday. Well somehow I have seen Steven on various occasion not in my town but in places I wouldn't suspect. But I never said hi because I was too shy to just go up and say "Are you Steven?" I don't like that, you know someone and you know that person knows you but neither one make an attempt to see if it really is the person. But yea, seeing Duwane reminded me of how that happens alot to me. Duwane like most dudes tried to holla, like quick reflex I told him naw I got someone. 6, I miss you. I wonder if Jesus had a girl he liked or loved. Maybe the scribes left that part out when he was young. I don't know I've just always wondered about that.
Well on another note, school is starting back up again, wow I'm so ready to start. I'm not going to play around like I did last semester. I need to focus on my goals.
Here are my following goals for the upcoming semester:
1. Take Raa to school on time everyday...(they make us pay $10 if she is late, I'm not having that)
2. For me to be organized...especially my car, it seems the back seat you can find everything
3. Don't rush, let everyday come as it is...acknowledge the present day, I seem to get lost in trying to get ready for alot of things in the future and by the end of the day I didn't even give thanks, that really has to stop
4. I'm going to make more effort on seeing 6 more.
5. Study like atleast 3-4hrs a day the WHOLE week this is the only way I'm going to be ontop of the game.
6. Start training for Rugby!! Yeah Rugby is the ish. Don't worry your girl won't be coming out of the game with cruches or anything like that
7. Start being honest with pops...this is an on going struggle due to the fact that everything seems to be wrong in his eyes. But making an attempt is worth alot more than not even trying.
8. Try to get as many connection as I can.
9. Well hm right now this is all I can think of I'll write more if I fing it. Also I'll keep on blogging.
Keep it real and God bless.

2 Comments:

Blogger idi said...

During the last days I also wrote only s.th. about my activities like you did it today.

I am struggeling for discipline.
You too?

Thanks and God bless you too.

6:48 PM  
Blogger idi said...

Sorry I only read today a bit more of your post
last time not because it was so long...

You know, Sonybaby,
I think, when you have a good conscience, you WILL
say: Hello, are you Steven

but when there was a little bit of bad conscience in that friendship as a child

a little impurity
or even a shyness
which was normal at that time
but which you didn't pay attention to
and which comes NOW in your mind...
then leave it
and don't greet him.

The first thing
to bring that old little relationship
to the Lord Jesus
to wash everything away
in that context
what He, being the PURE
didn't like
at that time when you were still that shy.

I had similar experiences.
I prayed for quite a while
with my councellor that God would do it that I am cleaned 100% in my conscience concerning that little relationship
and if I will meet him in heaven
after death
that there will be
nothing
between that young man and me
that will be a
hinderance
in the perfect joy

Do you know what?
When that prayer
was heard
and fulfilled
I felt that inwardly

and the next time
when I met him,
I could greet him
freely...

Wish you that
Heidi

5:58 PM  

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