I'm the sheep.

Alright lots of things are happening to me...I might as well share it...
Well first of all I feel lost. To admit it, I've been feeling this way for a while. I'm really trying not to show it, but the back of my mind I know what's going on. Like I look at everyday life. Ppl struggling, things just going unexpectedly. I mean I'm here struggling to find out want out of life. Okay I think what sort of got me going was a discussioin I was having with a friend of mine...we were studying for our first exam in Organic Chemistry. ANd I say, "really will we even use this later on (I was talking about IR Spectra's of molecular compounds)?" Well then Sharon states, "Naw girl they are just trying to keep us occupied." You know really that got me. I never thought of it that way. Okay I'm not really interested in research or anything in that area. Here I am seeking to be either a doctor or dentist. (this will be determined by my test results) So pretty much it felt like I was wasting my time by taking these classes that will only help me with the MCAT or DAT...and I won't be using much of chemistry or anything else when I go into graduate school unless i go into research. Why is that I have to be occupied why can't I occupy. Should I always be passive like this. Then I thought I want to be well rounded. I want to know everything in every type of subject. Man I just don't know, this is life...an experience where we seem to be in the back seat most of the time until we are ready to get the front seat and know what turn is next. But right now this is one issue that I'm kinda lost in. God willing I'll end up fine...I really have more to write but time is wasting...