just cuz your there

Why am I constantly thinking about why we stayed so long together? Did we want to put ourselves in a situation which we knew we didn't know how to fix, or who would try to fix it first? It seems like I'm the culprit of the whole situation, trying so hard for EVERYTHING to be good when really it wasn't. 6 I knew. when you said you don't want to meet them (parents) in a long long time. I just hugged you and sighed and knew that it was coming. We both knew it was coming, but I felt it for a while. Maybe not calling you for a couple days in a row started to show you that it was coming. Trying to risk everything. Shoot you did it the day b4 I was going to get a new cell so I could talk to you more. But you said no save your money, did you say that cuz you knew it was coming? It was sweet that you were trying to be considerate but I was trying to save us in a little way, cuz I knew it was coming? Listen. Always the Listen on IM worried me, something from you Mr. Wise, God too wise, see I think more than talk, you are the same but a little better at the talking. Well anyways...it came. What are we going to do now? I call you and want it to feel like old times, at times it does but alot of the times its like a different person NO NO its the same person so much like me, holding it back. Why do we have to be alike on that part? Well I'm still in love with you if you really want to know. I am. I can't put it all here cuz you might figure some stuff out that I don't think your ready for but yeah, I love you. Thinking of you, I don't know if you do it. I start talking about you to other ppl I still say "my boyfriend" instead of "ex" which is still weird. Ppl are calling now but I don't want it. Seriously, alot of offers but I'm straight up holding both hands and looking down as I walk along the gazing eyes. That's how we were raised always to look down as a sign of respect, its hard to look at someones eyes, but for you 6 I couldn't help but to gaze and marvel upon those brown eyes of yours, something... so deep so deep- Ice Cube Well until luego. 1