Lil bit

It seems like alot of times I don't have the right thing to say. Damn it feels like that alot of times. Shit, its like I assume that ppl understand what I'm saying by my actions. But on the real that shit isn't doing me any good. Lately I've been on this down fall. I don't know where its coming from but gosh maybe I have to reach my low to know what it's like to be at my high. Oh I remember high, but high left me for a while. Its to an extent I don't want to be high anymore, is that bad, what if I start to like being in this inbetween phase. Is that right?