Refreshed and clear...

Well this weekend was going great until Saturday. We went to Bush Gardens. Raining and all I didn't expect to see them there. I thought hey I'll be a good Samaritan and offer them a ride to their destination. I've known em for a while so its not like their strangers. Usually he is with them, but I didn't pay it no mind. Too Oblivious. As we drove out we had a good conversation about our futures. Sexy rabbit is in the car not saying anything guess too shy. You would think people would let u pass to go into Wendy's but no! I waited there for about 10 minutes. In the meantime, I got a few good laughs. Drop em off and pull up into the left lane that's turnin into Bush Gardens. Unexpectedly, I see him. I had to look a couple times to make sure it was him. He was with someone. Now I'm really not the nosy type of person, but my 007 instinct was slowly pulling in. I remember reading the year book. It must of been her. Nicole. So this is the mysterious girl. Why didn't he tell me? Cooter, how would I know.lol. I always tell him whats up with me. I tell him I'm coo right now just talkin to Jmillz (as he calls him). Really I wasn't mad just disappointed. Damn what is this? I just couldn't understand. I'm pretti easy-going. I don't know. Called him up the next day wonderin if he wanted these VIP tickets I got for this club. But I didn't have the heart to ask. How long does it take then?
Nyways besides that I had a great time at Bush Gardens, didn't get to dark. Yeah!!! lol. Went to church and had a great time with Mrs. Peggy. That crazy lady.
Yesterday actually I started my working out. like round 10 at night. I was like man I have got to get some stress out. Was there fo bout 1 n 1/2. Did my 2 mi. I felt good this mernin.lol. I do feel good. I think I'll be prayin more often in the mornings. It just makes the day start off so good.
Well called him lata found out the truth. Kinda? Nyways he's straight I guess. Gummie just signed out said he'd be bk. I wonder what happened to the broccoli?

What's kickin in my mind?

Ya long night, woke up then just went back to sleep. As a I hear "Jesus Walks" I begin to slowly wake up. As I'm peckin on my cell to my son, I start to gain consciousness. Lata as I begin to clean, I realize that this pre-med thing I'm gettin into is going to be real hard. I'm ready tho. But am I really? I look at some doctors and just see that they have no life besides their job. There is mo out there for me. Am I just doing this for someone else or me? Been my dream or have I just been brainwashed into wanting it to be my dream? Only God knows what I will do with my life. I began to pray last night to Him and asked and meditated. There is time but not enough. I will start to realize what I want in life. Well I'm off to my Chem book now.

What's really going on?

Waking up in the morning I hear someone call me. "Sony, wake up!!" As I grind my teeth I begin to hug my pillow cuz I have to say goodbye. Slowly I walk through the cool marble hallway. Eyes not completely open I accidently bump the wall as I walk. Pops greets me with a kiss, yet I don't want to talk. Talkin is not my thing in the morning. I open the fridge and look wondering if I'm really hungry. I close the door and realize I need to go and sleep some more. As I walk back to my room I see the book I was reading last night, "Maximize the Moment" by T.D. Jakes. I begin to turn the pages trying to find something that made me really think last night...I remember that I underlined it...Finally I found it."We are conceived in a blaze of passion and we enter this world in a flash of urgency, our life igniting quickly, eupting in flames of glory. We combustion in various levels of splendor and the, in the blink of an eye, we burn out." I guess the point of that is just to explain that while life seems so short, I really need to make something out of the erupting flames. Well I'm out got's to go clean. Plez! LOL