Rickey Smiley

Rickey holding down in Tampa, you know that shirt looks exactly like the one he wore last night...hmmm

Auntie Ru, Raa, and I got done by like 8. Knowing very well that the event is running on black time. jp. I knew we hadn't missed it. Then come to the door a white paper reading "SOLD OUT." What? So of course you know the dudes that bought the tickets for $5 were trying to sell them for $10. Aight i'll play with their game. But anyways. One of their friends wasn't willing to give up the ticket. So we are there just waiting for this poop-head that's so greedy to just give it up. Anyways we finally get in.
Tons of people came. Somehow we were able to sit real close to the stage. But not close enough to get picked on. Writing his jokes doesn't compare to what was heard. It was just funny as anything. He did alot of his acts that he does on BET. But still hearing it live was even funnier. Aight well I'll leave it @ 1. Till tha nex time peace

Whad ya cookin mahn?

I realized that alot of things I'm not paying attention to lately.

Numba One is tha Lord God, Ja, the Almighty...it seems like I'm not trying to connect as we once were. No I don't think I'm out of reach from Him, its just we haven't had as many sessions together as we should. I know He wants to but it seems like I've put Him on hold. Not good, not good at all.
LOL I rememba when mom would call us from our activities at night usually homework and be like "Girls, its time to pray." I really need that. Shoot I rememba once Ama wasn't in a real good state of mind and she began praying about how I don't eat healthy foods. We all busted out laughing. At the table we pray but not always. It just it seems like the hunger takes on you don't really even think about thanking the Lord before you eat. Usually it will be while I eat I'll pray. Does it seem that some are shy to pray in public? I tend to be shy. I rememba walking up in the library at school and seeing these muslims praying. I was very much impressed. I do thank the Lord when I'm driving...like usually at home or something I just begin to wonder how things aren't that bad for me and I am blessed. Its nice.

I was listening to the radio on Sunday on the gospel station...and this lady began to preach about how we are always saying that the Lord allowed this to happen such as sickness or anything bad. This is I am not proud to say but sometime I do think that God allowed things to happen. But the lady straightend it out saying that we allow the bad things to happen. The Lord will do whatever to protect us from the evil things but we as humans allow those evil things to come into our lives.

Well the otha thing I'm not paying attention to is my family. My father pointed it out to me that I don't keep in contact with them. Most of them are in Africa and India so ofcourse he understands its hard to keep real close contact with them. But the initiative is what he was talking about. As I was hearing him talk to me about this i began to just think at the times Tina(my lil cousin) has written to me...with so much love she writes her words are so deep a yearning for her big sister to come back or atleast for her to come here. I have written letters but not on a regular basis. I'll start writing to them. I WILL DO IT.

Gloomy rainy days aren't that bad when you think of it. It seems like time is moving slow as if every step you take is in the same motion no aggitiation. It like the fresh rain drops leave enough moisture in the air to just keep you cool. The night rests quickly tho, its no shock when you see night for the day was close to night. hmm. or its just this gloomy rainy day is real nice for me.

Aight then I'll leave it @ this

A letter ...

You brought me to a place where you knew I'd be safe
You took me to places which you knew you could trust
You left knowing I'd be strong

Life knew Time was not its friend

But you showed me what I was ready to experience
You wanted the best for me, things you didn't have
Tho at times I hated you when you were right
And when you'd beat me I'd laugh because being stubborn I was just getting immune to it
Or when you chased my "friends" away from the front door
You made fun of me when I gained weight but you always said you envied my beauty
You put me in place when I'd gas up knowing damn well I shouldn't think I was the ish
I knew you were just protecting me with your love

I used to wait for your shuffling of your white sneakers with your all white out fit to hit the plastic runner on the carpet in the halfway
The kiss b4 you left and how you'd tuck me in knowing that I'd have to wake up soon
And sure to leave a warm breakfast out for me
Oh yes I won't forget when you'd pull me from the bed when I didn't want to get up
LOL Oh I do rememba

I felt for you when you knew that the relationship was breaking
You only stayed for us

"Muskana" was the echo I'd hear
but know its just "Mahgallay"
I wish I never took you for granted, you warned me but I did not listen
I'm suffering now from those mistakes
But eventho I struggle and yern for that feeling of just innocence as a child
I feel you still are protecting me

When I look at my hands I see you...the exact make from your father to your father's father...
I'm glad you chose to have me as your own

As I ask myself why didn't I believe you when I talked to you last
So proud of where you came from yet you knew you'd stay there
So ready to fight and feared nothing but HIM

I knew I lost you before I lost you
I wished and cryied at night for you to return yet holding the tears back in the face of the world
Yelling to my pillow your name yet not hearing your reply

I was not able to say my last word
That huge lump in my throat as I spoke there infront of the Ambuyas and Sekurus
I couldn't say what was truely in my heart for I feared
There is more to the story but I am just to naieve to know the truth

I am asked constantly about who took part in the making of such a unique kind
A make that not many can interpret nor are able to immitate
Many tried but were not able to make the right proportions for the mix
A gift for the Lord it was that united the two

The "Hunny" to "Lovey" will neva be heard
I don't want another one to say it, tho I know he would be happy
Can there be another one like you?

Now I speak of past tense about you yet you live
You live in me, my life, my walk, my smile, my laugh, and my heart


Deno Ku Lova Sterreki, Amayi!!!

Anjalie, Anjalie KuSpanjali

The title is a Hindi song that I really like. Well yes I thought I'd be smart and try erry thing on the buffet. OH-NO, It was trouble waiting to happen. So Serena, Aunti G, and I went to eat at Angithi. + I was rushing to get there b4 the buffet closed. Anyways I got there in time. The whole day I couldn't eat cuz I was so FULL. Well I wake up around 12:30. Still haven't eaten anything since. Call up D and then tell him I'll call him bk, I gotta finish up some stuff. You know that feeling when your body begins to ache, you get a headache, and erry time you touch what it feels like a sting. Well I knew these were the symptoms, OH-NO. I tried to play it off. Well I had an Apple for breakfast. I didn't want to go overboard cuz I hadn't eaten in like 24hr. I take a shower, As the water hits my shower cap it feels like its making the headache worse. So I get out. Moisterize. And then I walk to the kitchen to get some apple juice. As I'm walking back to my room. I feel that queezy feeling. No-is it really coming I hold my mouth. Yup I ran to the bathroom. I feel relieved. I call up Serena to ask if she did the same. Yeah it was the food. I'm nevva gonna eat thurr again. Right now the only Indian food I'll eat is Rice, Rasam, and meat @home. That is it.
So its 1 in the morning. I call up 6 but no answer. He is prolly doing what I should be doing too. Sleeping. But hopefully the Dr. goes well 2moro. Aight 1 luv.

A walk through the park

What a day! Right now I am just relaxing in the Library listening to The Documentry. Got the phone on Vibrate, book open, calculator on tact.
I had to take Auntie G to her exam today. She's been "studying" for ova 6month for this exam. So I got to her place by 6:30am and then we left round 7 got into Tampa round 8. But OH I thought I knew how to get there. Dummy no. It looked on the map that I75 and I275 were the same. Nah. I called up Yonni and asked him to look on the comp. for me on Map quest. Yup I was on the wrong road. But anyways we get there. She's real nervous. I'm just trying to walk in there with a cool mind. I hand the registration paper ova to the man at the desk. "NO!! You need the Authorization to Test paper." I thought I got eveything I needed from Auntie Ru. Nope I didn't. Well I called up my pops. He was all confused. So I talked to the guy and went to the near by hotel to have the paper faxed. The place had a fax machine, BUT the place that gives the tests out only e-mails. UGH another obstable. So I had to get them to e-mail it to me. But the women on the otha line said it was not granted that I'd get the paper immediately. :-( I call dad to try to fax it to me. I open the computer up at the hotel and there it is! I was so happy. Oh not to mention they charged me $2.oo a min to use the internet plus $1.00 printing. well I printed the paper. All happy and walking out of there like it was a breeze. I ask Aunti to let me see the paper. UGHHH! Its not the right one. There was an atttachment. Pfff. Well so we hustled back to the buisness room. I try to open the file, NOPE I have to download Adobe Reader. Yeah so I try. But the comp. not letting me. I call the HELP desk. And they say they can't do anything for me but refund the money. Luckily I brought my labtop with me. I opened up the file and switched it Adobe into Word and sent it to my e-mail. Format wasn't the same but hey I had to do something. So I spent another $4.00 to open on my e-mail to print on the business computer. Ahh finally we were done!! I had missed my first class. But its okay, except I think I have to miss it on Wed. too. Pooh. We have a test in there on Fri. I think I'm going to attend the 6 o'clock class that my friend Drew is in. Okay well then I'm out. I can't wait to get to bed.

Sunday Morning Glory

Tell me why exactly I woke up 5 in the morning on a Sunday? I do go to church but today I know I'm going in Tampa @ 9. I guess the angels that were watching ova me must have been playing with my eyelids today. Anywayz yes I'm going to a SUPER SUNDAYA at the SUNDOME. Brian McKnight is coming!! Oooo that man, God bless him. I really need to go to Church today cuz the things I had on my mind last night to do with GB all because of those pic. Well let me get myself right. Go Eagles!!!

Invasion of Scrappy

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It all went down last night. My rebelling began. After class I planned on going to the Lil' Scrappy Concert. It was supposed to start at 9 but being on black ppl time he came out at 11. I was chilling at my friends house watching movies, listening to music, and IMing. The weather was no joke yesterday. But it seemed like these chic were not feelining it. Some were wearing these short skirts and these little tops. Nope not me I was fa sho covered up. But yeah I met some nice ppl. LOL. This one dude who is Tay's friend. I can't remember is name started with an L. But yeah he said I reminded him of this girl he had the biggest crush on. Then he started asking me some real stupid questions: What's you fav color, your fav ice cream, your fav place to eat? I knew were this was heading. So I told him what real. And let it be. Then he was like "Can I get a hug?" I looked at him like WTH, so I shook his hand and was like "This will be your hug" Am I low? lol. Oh well. Finally they called out that he was there. Oh wow he broke it of with Head Bussa. Everyone came out buck wild afta that. I got caught up in this crowd and was getting pushed, shoot I started pushing too.lol. Scrappy was so wasted. Talking ish. lol. But the thing ended after an hour n half. It was now 12:30. Pops told me to come home at 10:30. I came home at 1:30. I walked in the house and told my aunt how it was. Having been awake for 24hr. I was tired as anything. I was so knocked out. I went to sleep with my sweater on.
Well we'll see how this goes today with pops. I woke up round 2 today and by that time he was gone. yesss. lol. Aight I'll keep it posted. Much to do today. 1 luv.

Sony's getting Swoll

what a long day...
Well today know that I had my Chem exam. I was running late. I went to my first class, and helped out my girl Theresa in some homework. I have such a bad memory I can't remember some simple stuff that I've learned...Tay pointed this out to me today too....Well I realized after class that the shoes I was wearing were not just not going to last me through the day, so since the mall is like 2 steps off campus. I jetted out of the parking lot and went to Burdines. Straight into the shoes department. I found these real cute ones. But I was really looking for something comfortable. I told the lady that I wanted them and that I'd wear them out. She must have been happy she made a quick sale for the day. Then I needed some breakfast...so I went to Barnies, I thought hey why not try something you haven't tried. I asked for a Cafe Cubano. Heck did I know what that was. The girl asked me if I wanted a 1/2 shot. I was like okay (not knowing what that meant "1/2 a shot" This lady had this little cup with was as high as my thumb.Oh well it was good. Just not enough.

The best day for lunch at school b/cuz it was free. Yes we had Popeye's, Papa Johns, Long John Silvers, and this stuff called Boba. I was so full. Then I went to the library. And began the cramming b4 the test. Took the test. eeee. Lets not ask about the grade yet.

So I called Tay up and met up with her at the gym.Had to work off all that food I ate. Tay is a thrower on the track team. So she was showing me some upper body. Wow I thought I could only do the bar. Hey now look at Sony pushing mo than the bar! hehe. My arms are really killing. And then we did some ab work outs. This is going to be serious now. Okay. I'm just looking to get tone, not lose weight just tone.

So now I'm home tired and ready to sleep. I'll post up lata.

Okkk

No they Didn't!

I'm telling you technology is incredible. What's next a kitchen? Wow I need one of these. Shoot I could be having ppl pay to watch the movies in my car. $$$ LOL I'll talk to pops about this. lol.