From 007 to -007

Well I'm here in the library. I got out of my class a lil early but I got to go back to wait in line with the other 200 students to pick the white labeled stickers that have our names on them. It took 20 minutes to take the attendance last week! Its ridiculous. Wow this dude next to me smells really good. I'm almost tempted to ask him what he has on. Stayin with my aunt these past few nights has been a hassle. But she's scared I guess. HAHA it is so funny to see her peepin at the window trying to see who is always at the door or pullin up in the drive way. Okay I think I'm slackin. You know not purposly but I know I could do beta in my classes. Juan I hope you feel beta. Crazy how things are lately. I talked to my GB the otha night. It was good hearin his voice. But my lil pre-paid had to hinder our convo. Well I have moved my grade of 007 to -007. Damn how could i be so careless. I always have it around me. The day I don't have it and I think it will be fine. It's gone. I'm not the type to curse but I had my share of terrets this morning. Spent ova 250 on it by now. I was supposed to be moving up in the gold reward. I just got to pick up the game. Wow D, pencils that is just the craziest analogy. I had to read it a couple times to figure out who was who.
This weekend I have no plans. Why does it seem like that for erry weekend.

In my Management class out teacher was talkin about Psychological Governors. People or things that hold you back from accomplishing what your fully able to perform well. Afta meditating on this I find that I have alot of psychological governors. Pumpumpana for instance everytime I might do something that is not up to his standards, he brings up the topic "you not going to do any good for me." Really thinking yes the investments are there but really I should be just doing things that will better my life. (Oh God, this dude that just came next to me stinks so bad)K I'mma jet out I'll post anotha lata. (got to go fo the 20 min. attendance.)

Time to vent.1

Yeah It has been a while since I last blogged. Alot of things going on here. School is crazy as hell. Family is trippin. But life within me is straight. Yes I will admit those bursts of all day headaches to happen but somehow I K.I.M (keep it movin).
You know what has been buggin me lately is pregnant women smoking. What kinda ish is this. Fo real can't these selfless women just think for their baby's health? Damn really, its total BS. Futzeke to those future mommies that smoke. Sekuru I hope you never read this. Forgive me Lord I just have to vent. On the real though it should be a crime.
On a lighter note, I've been really contemplating my future lately. I need, no I will move on to bigger and better things in my life. Some people just seem always to put me down. Pumpumpana!!! AHH. You just making me so mad lately. How does he know that I'm not going to do any good for him? Can he tell the future. I know I might look at this lata and be like, damn I was being real harsh to him. But I'm fo real at this moment. Why does it seem that I'm more afraid of him than God. I know I should fear only God and no other person here on earth. I am a pretti submissive person. I will try to obey what my authority tells me. But lately I'm in that retaliation mode. I really don't kno where I'm going in this blog but this is it till I come back.