Lil bit

It seems like alot of times I don't have the right thing to say. Damn it feels like that alot of times. Shit, its like I assume that ppl understand what I'm saying by my actions. But on the real that shit isn't doing me any good. Lately I've been on this down fall. I don't know where its coming from but gosh maybe I have to reach my low to know what it's like to be at my high. Oh I remember high, but high left me for a while. Its to an extent I don't want to be high anymore, is that bad, what if I start to like being in this inbetween phase. Is that right?

We really don't click

We'll ya eva come upon a person in your life you think is pretty interesting hoping they are interesting like you. Well for instance I have Frankie, the most craziest dude I know. My best friend literally to all extent. He's a person we can talk about ANYTHING. And have fun at the same time. Now on the other hand my friend Jamil came to town the other day, he attends Colgate and he comes over towards Tampa to see his pops. WEll I've only met Jamil on various occassions. And really stuff went down but nothing was ever persude. Which I'm greatful for. Anyways I went yesterday to meet up with him. Saw his pops, who I thought had the most sexiest complexion I ever saw. I know I'm lame but I can't blame myself for admiring a man that takes care of his skin well. lol. lame huh? Well so we went to the mall, however I got lost and ended up going towards St. pete. I dunno how but it just happened. Well throughout the car ride is pretty boring conversation, i'm trying to ask questions and stay entertained otherwise on my side you won't be hearing a word outta me. I'm usually the one driving alone,I keep to myself, I really don't talk alot unless I'm on the phone, ya undadiggg. So yeah we get to International Mall and walk around but man some real weird thing like I really just felt like takin him bk cuz I wanted to do other things. That's pretty mean,so we come to the place wear we parked and I start heading off towards that way and he asks "where are we goign?" and i just said, "unless you wanna go round tha mall again?" He's just like whateva. Anyways yeah we really don't click. He said he enjoyed it and he had fun, are you having fun when there is no reaction to your face at all? Maybe he's like me a little bit,I find it hard at times to get excited at things ppl think are exciting. Like the white chicks, "Oh my God that is So Cool!"lol crazy huh but that's how I am. I mean don't get me wrong I love to have a good time, but maybe also facially ppl may not think I'm having fun. Hmm but I'm not as serious are jamil. Its just we really don't click.

lactic acid at work

now for real it seems that things are burning. like inspiration, faith, love, and alot more other things. Feel a little out of touch with myself. So today I thought back to when I did feel intouch and that was bk in high school. yet Senior year was the most hardest year I seriously was in tune with what was going on...this was due to alot of activities that I was involved. Yup I will admit entering college did make me alot less involved with school cuz of classes. But now i've gotten a very hectic schedule and how do I plan on going about at making the lactic acid in life lessen...by adding more. Really when I added more things in my daily schedule I felt more occupied with time management. I set goals of when I wanted things done and how I was going to go about and do it...well today I drove across campus to the VA hospital and went into the volunteer office to get an application. I need to volunteer so I can write it on my resume for graduate school and also see things that I might be interested in. Okay well I did that. Of late, people have been asking me if I still dance, and ofcourse the answer was no because of classes but you know that is really my passion. Dance and performing doing something to express my body. Well I went to this new dance studio here in my town John Leggio's School of Dance. WEll apparently they have acting and musical theatre which I've always been interested in but never really had the opportunity. WELL OPPORTUNITY IS KNOCKIN huh. So yeah I got an application for that. I've been working out this past week after class. So yeah goal is to be 20% body fat meaning right now I'm at 27% and yeah I feel that if setting little goals will motivate me then thats what I gotta do. i'm not looking to loose weight, to be honest I love my weight I think its sexy to be thick and with curves, but for my health I want to work on my heart more cardio. OOOO yes, look out soon i will be training for a marathon that is on my to do list. so yup watch out Sony-ma is gonna be runnin those infamous 5Ks lol. ooowee. So I gotta go do these nasty ol' online classes which are a bore. Okay God bless.

BACK

Well I'm bk from vacation. Ooo and must I say VACATION wow I really think that this was one of the craziest vacations. First of all from the trip I learned:
1. When there is something you haven't done before do it first cuz you might not have time to do it more when your almost done with your vacation
2. Some rich people are real crabby
3. Don't act like you the shit when you on the slopes
4. Gammbling is addictive: run when your at the highest

Well to start off going to Colorado was real hectic. A Floridian packing for the cold is hell. I will tell you that. What do we know about the cold really? Shoot its January and I'm wearing a tank top and flip flops. So yeah I ultimately packed everything into my suitcase cuz i wasn't about to get frost bite in the mountains. Thank God my uncle knows that traveling with women your bound to have alot of luggage so he got a rental SUV no not a slightly used vaccuum.lol. So we spent the night in Denver. My cousin had grown so much since we had seen her last month.

Well now I must indicate point 1. importance:
My aunt Tash asked me when we were in Denver whether we wanted to go skiing on Friday. Here I must note this was Thurdsday and I'm still kinda tired. She said she didn't have enough time to make "reservations" for lessons and getting all the equipment. Well me being "understanding" I just said we'd do it next Monday. and we were leaving on Wednesday. Well okay let me go on... So we went on with our trip to Eagle yes yes where Kobe had his lovely affair. So we drove about 2 1/2 hrs from Denver to Eagle. oh yeah I slept the whole way. It was a very crowded ride but I managed to get a beautiful cramp in my neck by the time we got to my uncle's place. So on Friday we just went to the "mall" damn it was a real crappy mall. haa all it had was a Sears, I guess that's what ova there is what makes it a mall. Gosh I wish had taken a picture of that place.lol. Well yeah I did my little Christmas shopping. Okay I gotta skip to Christmas cuz that's all I remember well we went to my aunt Tia's house for the night and they opened presents. Then lata that night we went bk to change cuz we were going to the Ritz Carlton for dinner. Well now to point 2. here was were I realized that some rich people are crabby. My cousin being really very excited at the dinner cuz there was a live band and a bunch of kids around, plus Santa was there she was just so excited. Well she went over to this table were there was a little girl like here (mixed) and she was smiling and waving hello. And her father I guess was like "WE don't want to be bothered" Like damn yo that's a little girl what bothering is she really doing? Ight whateva tho she's still the fliest toddler I know.

Well remember I said i was going skiing on monday well that didn't happen my father decided that we need to go shopping in Denver. I really wasn't in the mood due to the fact I didn't have any money. So I'd be just helpin out 50 by being a window shopper. So I just walked around aimlessly with nothing in mind, and really there weren't any good sales.

WEll finally I went skiing!! Tuesday, man fareal it was like ugh tomorrow I'm leaving and I'm doing this now. I should have said to do it last Friday. 1. I should have learned from my trip to Hawaii when I went surfing I did on the day before we were leaving which I regretted cuz I wanted to do it again. Well yeah I woke up late that day and my aunt called the place where they give lessons and said that its first come first serve and that there were only lessons 2 times a day. So I was like bumb the lessons, I'll do it on my own. I actually got online and started reading some tips on skiing and that's it. I'd iceskated before so yeah I thought It'd be a little bit the same. Well no not really it was not the same. lol.

Me and Aunty Tash...she's teaching me some last minute things. If you look behind the read fence, that's were the lessons are going on, damn those are whimps do it tha hard way. Without lessons.lol.

Raa and Kashontai looking cute

Well yeah boi I did my thing on the slopes after my little run down with aunty Tash I went staight to the slopes. Everyone was telling me the hardest thing is getting down from the sky ride.

Oh yeah I forgot to say...I went alone, none of my family came with me, cuz they wanted "lessons" see the whole "lessons" things really messes up things for people if they can't get em.lol. WEll yeah this a pic of me on the sky ride cheesin in the cold. Damn I look goofy.

WEll yeah I witnessed nigga acting fool up on the slopes. 3. Dude was just loud as anythin, he had some headphones on with a plaid brown sweat suit Well erryone was looking at him of course, just wondering what the heck he's wallin out about well his turn came to go on the sky ride and i don't know how to really explain this nucca fell, but all I could do was laugh. So simply just be humble and skii, and don't act like you the shit when you on the slopes.

Well I did have a good time skiing.

Well finally I did one of the things on my to do list, man hopefully I can go again and snowboard in the spring.

Well finally we were off to Sin City!! Yeah boy! I was so ready to hit this place up. Unfortunately I couldn't get into any clubs cuz I'm still not 21. Only a couple more years. But in the mean time I had fun dressing up and going shopping. Oooh yeah I will tell you ladies and dudes were dressed to a T there. Oh and I gambled. Ahh yeah I got hooked. Hexbreaker. This game was crazy all of a sudden I went from 20 to 60 dollars...then i got greedy and wanted more. Man I should have left when the money was high. I eventually came out with 35 and then my pops was like lets try another game Cleopatra, man damn Cleopatra I lost all my money on that machine. Well I learned my lesson get out when money is good. Next time.

Well yeah we watch the most crappiest show in Vegas. The way I saw it was you gotta watch something crappy to appreciate something really good. Well the show was called Tony and Tina's wedding www.tonyandtinavegas.com this thing is real cheesy that's all I can say. DON't WASTE YOUR TIME ON THIS!!!

Well then we saw Ka a cirque du Soleil which we were an hour late too. It was real good. Interesting how people come up with things to entertain and allow the mind to wonder. This I recommend to people to go see.

New Year's was real busta!! That's it I could have had a good time but really it wasn't nothing to boast about cuz I was in Vegas. I have never had good new year's. So it's whateva. Well this is what happened...after watching Ka in the MGM Grand we decided to get something to eat. Well after eating my dad wanted to go back to the hotel. Already seeing a bunch of drunk ppl around it daughters all he wanted was to lock us in the room away from "evil".lol. What a shame. anyways, I took a slight detour on the way to the hotel so that we could atleast enjoy the strips thousands of festive people. It was great. The wind was blowing the hell and it was cold so my pops had a scarf wrapped around him to protect himself from the cold. All of a sudden I realized that there a was cop talking into his walkie-talkie looking at my dad. Then it clued in that he thought my pops are being suspicious. So I had to tell my dad to give me the bag that he was holding.lol. Well then we went bk to the hotel room. Ooh I was kinda upset cuz I wanted to go outside. Then I got the talk. The talk for what my pop is expecting from me this coming year. Gosh I really hate the talk. Oh well. Anyways I did have fun in Vegas.

this is family we just met.

Raa being attacked by an alligator