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I was just reading Share My World's blog and I just felt it time for me to write something...
Well yeah I'm seriously just thinking life is an amazing venture. So much things turns, nooks, crannies, dips, highs, what more you know. God sure made it a life to not forget. I think to myself my soul is what counts, my body won't be with me. We have never seen our faces. Seriously we use other mediums to see it...mirrors, glass, water, other objects, yet we the soul living with in the body have never seen its own face. Of course if you look real hard you'll go cross-eyed and see you nose or upper lip. Why did God make it like that? Are we being fooled by images of ourselves. Maybe it mean look into you, yeah we see the rest our body from neck down but the focus is visually we are hidden from things. We need to seek to find this face means finding your heart. Hmmm...I'll do more

I'm the sheep.

Alright lots of things are happening to me...I might as well share it...
Well first of all I feel lost. To admit it, I've been feeling this way for a while. I'm really trying not to show it, but the back of my mind I know what's going on. Like I look at everyday life. Ppl struggling, things just going unexpectedly. I mean I'm here struggling to find out want out of life. Okay I think what sort of got me going was a discussioin I was having with a friend of mine...we were studying for our first exam in Organic Chemistry. ANd I say, "really will we even use this later on (I was talking about IR Spectra's of molecular compounds)?" Well then Sharon states, "Naw girl they are just trying to keep us occupied." You know really that got me. I never thought of it that way. Okay I'm not really interested in research or anything in that area. Here I am seeking to be either a doctor or dentist. (this will be determined by my test results) So pretty much it felt like I was wasting my time by taking these classes that will only help me with the MCAT or DAT...and I won't be using much of chemistry or anything else when I go into graduate school unless i go into research. Why is that I have to be occupied why can't I occupy. Should I always be passive like this. Then I thought I want to be well rounded. I want to know everything in every type of subject. Man I just don't know, this is life...an experience where we seem to be in the back seat most of the time until we are ready to get the front seat and know what turn is next. But right now this is one issue that I'm kinda lost in. God willing I'll end up fine...I really have more to write but time is wasting...

Anotha Recap

Yes its exactly 5:27 in the morning. I got up from my fake death AKA sleep. slight insomnia but hey its not bothering anyone is it? Well I must say I had quite a week. Let me recap.
Well start off I need to start with God's day, Sunday.
Sunday-
I can't explain to you how much I love hair. I mean maybe its just a thing I've had since I was young but I'm fascinated my hair. D, can prolly say this everytime you see me I got a different look, this is usually due to my hair. But enough of that.
I was priveledged to attend the Premiere Hair Show 2005 in Orlando. More than 10,000 hair stylists, nail techs, makeup artists, and more were there. I was in absolute awe. Booths everywhere trying to sell their products. Even dudes built up from head to toe wearing nothing but speedos. Little shocking but yea he did look good. lol. We attended a bunch of classes on of which I saw a Sean John model. I have no idea what his name was but it was him. Amazing hair. Anyways ppl left and right were saying Raa and I looked like twins. I don't know I really don't see it. Hands down it was amazing which I could have went to the after party at Hard Rock but had to go home school tha next day.
Monday-
I can't believe it is my second yr now in college. Man I still have so many things I want to do while I'm in college. But anyways let me first start with going to class. Unfortunately I was not blessed this semester with attending 2-3 times a week of classes. Its more like 5 times. UGh. But sacrifice for some good teachers. Well I went to class. No seats. Literally it was 40-50 students in the lobby trying to get a seat into Organic Chem. Usually you attend the first day just to take attendance. Nope nothing like that. We didn't even have to attend until Thursday for attendance. Oh man what a waste of gas. Well with my mind wondering what I was going to do with my time I lost my wallet. Yup again, recall last time I got my purse stolen, but this time I was just being careless and lost it. I was with Frankie at Pro-Copy and I wanted to get some food and guess what. No wallet. I was going a little crazy. trying to recall my steps. From Pro-copy to the Transportation Dept (thanks Yonni!) I sat two places, and when I went back that way I found nothing. Well I cancelled all my credit cards. Man I felt so stupid. I talked to Kekle and explained what happened I guess just venting and letting out how stupid I was, luckly I was reassured that I'm not stupid I just need to pay attention more.
Tuesday-
The Benz dealership. yeah I was there again for the 3rd time trying to get the side mirror fixed. It seems like the lobby of that place I get eyed on alot. Last time it happened like twice this time same twice. I was doing my own thing but I guess buisness men come from work and are fixing their car and see a lady in the lobby I guess they just head that way. Whateva, anyways I do try to get conversations though, listen to ppl I'm not trying to get anything else plz I know where I need to go if I need anything- MIA. Well got the car done and went to class, Tommy called and said to stop driving the G.lol. Is it that obvious I did park in the farthest parking lot from campus, I don't like that type of attention.
Wednesday-
Class of man it was way too early that's all I remember.
Thursday-
Gas war. Unfortunately with Hurricane Katrina's aftermath, gas prices started to soar. Pops filled up the gas and bought 4, 6gallon gas containers. Okay well guess who gets the gas all over their pants, NEW Flojos, and shirt. Yes Sony. I don't know why something odd happens to me. But yea it was not a very nice sight nor smell.Yuck. Raa even gagged when I got intot the truck. LOL>
Friday-
School. But this was really a different day. Its like from the beginning of the day, the halks were out looking for the pretty. No lie from the bank, to the Marshall Center, to Walgreens. Wow it was serious. So serious that someone offered to marry me. I know that was a joke from the dude, but hey who says that you know. Well anyways I caught up with my friend Lamar AKA Dubey. Aware that he was extremely stressed. I took the time to listen to the brother. Dude has a very kind heart, and love for ppl. He was telling me about the stuff he's planning to do for the Hurricane victims, Dubey was about to cry for a minute, it was deep. But yea he sat down and explain that he needed help so I offered to help him out, really I was praying for something like this, in some way I could help out. Luckily I bumped in him.
Saturday-
nothing just at home with the pissants.lol
Sunday-
went to my uncle's homes and played video games with the boys. That's it really.
Well its now Monday. I'm tired its been a long post. I'll keep it a little more short next time. It now 6:05 I'm going to bed